Hard Experience

Hi im back i hope u all had wonderful holidays i hope this year would be better for all and all our dreams come true

i was away from the bloggingsphere coz i lost my dear friend on 21 of Dec,2007 (I pray her soul rest in peace) i didnt want to blog about it i know all were having good times and preparing for holidyas i didnt want to spoil that ,even for a moment thats why i was away until it was the time to be back.

it was hard time for me i dont want to go back for details coz im getting better now after i felt like im not me for 10 days i was so much sad and depressed...that really broke my heart coz im gonna miss her so much and her little boys will miss her also alot.

this experience was weird to me i can hear about young people die for any reason i feel sad but coz i dunno them i just forget....but this time was totally different this situation has influenced my thoughts alot i know it happens to many people ...i feel like all life concepts have changed for me i never think about death or other life seriously ...but now i feel like i have to read alot about Religion and be close to God

my next Post is about the things that i have learned out of that hard experience i would like to share it very much and id love to know your opinions too

Thanks to all my friends and to your comments when i was away it really made me happy that u dont forget me even when i was away

I visited My Friend

i went to see my friend for the first time i couldnt see her not bcoz its not allwed bcoz i was emotinaly wrecked i met her family when i hugged her father he was crying and same with her sisters it was a hrd moment i felt dizzy and my legs were shaking i was not feeling that i can see her.

next day i went i saw her i talked to her i know she is still unconscious but i talked to her hoping that she maybe hearing me i told her "u were always strong and u have to be more strong and have faith and im sure u will overcome this and beat this situation your family and kids need u we all need u ...i love u"

but still she is in bad conditin even Doctors say it is so bad condition she needs a miracle to recover.....i believe that God will help her...he is the only one can do miracles. he is merciful too i believ whatever will happen is God'will we all have to accept what God wants.

all i can do these days are my prayers and my heart is with her. i feel im not able to do anything else.

Prayers to my dear friend

I was so excited this week one of my best friends had a baby boy , my best friends are 5 girls 2 of them since primary school and three since college. they are my sisters i dont have sisters i got only two brothers so i consider them my sisters we have very strong friendship that im so proud to have them in my life they are my childhood memories and my teenage memories we all been through everything together even we all got married in sequence and had kids same ages.
can u imagine how lucky we have eachother.

i went to visit her at hospital an congratulate her she was ok that was her second boy , today my firnd called and said that she is at Intensive Care coz she had Brain Thrombosis i was shocked i felt so much pain in my stomack i cried alot i fear that something could happen to her she is very good girl mom,daughter,wife , sister and friend she is so tender and kind very tender she lost her mom when she was a little girl i remember her once telling me when we were at college that she is going to be a great mother when she have kids and give them the best mother love and care that she was deprived from in her life....i remember when she calls all of our mothers on Motherday and bring them flowers and say they are all like my mother

she told me once im scared that i could die early some day and my son could face what i have faced and live his life with no mom ...OMG i cannot even type but i feel better sharing i want it all out she is in a comma now i pray that she recovers soon and get back to her 2 years old son and her new baby ohhh plz GOD save her and let her be better for her children's sake

me and my friends are in bad time its really hard time for us she is still 28 yrs old i pary GOD that you Bless her and save her plz she loves GOD so much she is a strong believer in GOD she prays knows her Islam and Quaran even when i used not to pray at college time she was the one who is behind me and tell me pary pray be close to GOD so GOD will be always there for u remeber GOD u will be surrounded with his Bless and Protection ....she is so goood

i love you dear so much my heart is with you i know u are strong and u will pass this hard time
my prayers and Doaa is with you